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| Intuition #4 |
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| Intuition #3 |
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These are a few more intuition paintings I did over
the weekend in preparation for my final project proposal for my
Contemporary Art Studio Seminar class. In terms of Semiotic
communication, these pieces are descriptors of my body in terms of
Index, which is a physical symbol made by its signifier ( i.e. a
fingerprint as representation of a finger). Literally, my body is
imprinted in the photogram leaving both an Iconic representation of my
physical body as well as a physical Index. These photograms are placed
on top of layers of materials which become a representation of my
intuitive interpretation of my identity within the time period I
meditate on. I am interested in examining the way my conceptual
identity changes as I work on these pieces, for I find that I am
constantly defining and redefining myself in memory. How does this
fluid self-interpretation relate to my current body and how do the
materials I intuitively select to create the grounds of the painting
redefine my present? Connected by a similar thread, in what ways are
these objects represented in proportion to one another related to my
body, as in how are the materials and methods proportionally and
methodically distorted by the misconceptions inherent in my thinking? I
know this is a lot of theoretical jargon, but it is necessary to
understanding how my art relates to modern aesthetics, and I need to be
able to discuss my work in these terms in order to communicate and more
clearly understand where these images come from. If anyone would like
to know more about these Indexes and Icons of representation, you can
refer to this
Prezi I made on art in relation to Semiotics.
Intuition #3: Reaching
for myself through fear, foundations of medical paraphernalia weaving,
stitching, and creating structure for my body. If you scratch away the
surface, you can see the layers and layers of evidence of what my body
requires to function, and what I must consume to live. My skin becomes a
focus here and an obsession, as it both covers the marks of my
injection sites, builds as scar tissue, and deteriorates in ultimate
lipodystrophy.
Intuition #4: How do I measure
the worth of my physical appearance? How do the physical side effects
of my diabetes magnify and distort the imperfections in my body and how
do I show the looming fear of what will become of my body in the
future? How much of my life is defined by this fear and is it the
underlying motive behind most day to day decisions I make, and is this
intensified by the affects of gay culture where looks are regarded as
wealth?
